but it wasn’t enough for you
determined to anger me, make me sad
forever being blue.
Deliberately you goaded me till I cried
starting arguments to make me give in
the mental torture cut deep inside
gnawing at me from within.
Thirty five years of marriage I gave you
chucked away like a used handkerchief
no counselling or help to decide our fate
just YOU getting justice and relief.
You traded me in for someone else
never taking my feelings into account
worked hard all our marriage for you and the kids
no matter how hard or the amount.
So go have your life, be with that girl
leave me alone to survive
don’t worry about me be happy yourself
I’ll be fine on my own, I’m alive!
Struggling to live, scared on my own,
but i’m strong and will survive.
A man you loved for forty years
has gone, life is not fair.
Kids all gone, lives of their own
my mind is going spare.
not going out, no friends to see
living this life day by day.
It’s hard to forget so many years
in a nightmarish foray.
So its questionable why this happened to me
in a previous life was I bad?
Months have passed ,things moving on
day by day not so sad.
Going shopping. eating out
in my new role as single not a wife!
Happy now on my own, I reflect back then
when It nearly ended by taking my life
but time is a great healer so they say
especially for an abandoned wife.